Ramblings continued

While at the hospital I got cat scans, xrays. I was poked, prodded etc and nothing showed up. First it was thought to be an infection in the lining of my heart since my white blood cell count was up and I had just had dental work and I had a heart murmor( the dental work and heart murmer combined can cause a fatal heart infection). It was not that though as my heart looked fine on the CT scan...
The dr wrote me a prescription for xanax so I could relax...
I thought that was the end of whatever was going on.
I spent the next 2 days feeling somewhat better but still out of sorts. I was home monday with just my youngest child. I could feel it starting again. The same feeling the same pain. I called my husband at work and he came home. I was a total mess and thought I was dying....I kept telling my husband I was so scared. I finally gave in and took a xanax and was able to feel a bit better.
The next morning I was very sick( in hindsight the flu like symptoms were probably withdrawl from my pain pills that I stopped taking because I thought maybe they were causing a problem). I was shaky and felt awful. My husband was home from work and we went to the dr. He ordered more tests and a specialist to see me for my choking feeling. He thought maybe I had hodgkins lymphoma and the choking feeling was from an enlarged lymph node. So...now I am even more scared. I go home and look up signs and symptoms on the internet and have convinced myself I am truly dying...
I will shorten the next few weeks up a bit...I ended up getting 6 rounds of lab work..my sed rate was EXTREMLY high..which of course made me truly believe I had some fatal ailment. I had more ct scans..I went to an ENT specialist and had an optic scope put down my nose to see into me. I went to a rhematologist who confirmed that the high sed rate was probably just from inflammation from my fibro and other arthritic type issues and not a deadly disease.
So, now I was assured that I was not dying. But I still felt awful. I could not breath. I would pace back and forth. I still was convinced that I had something fatal that was not showing up. I was obsessed with any sign or symptom...I checked my pulse 10000 times a day. I listened to my heart and lungs. I would do various other tests on myself as well. I also started getting tingling in my feet..so now I figure I have MS...so off to the neurologist I go...probably not MS..but I have periphular neuropathy..painful, but not fatal..
I guess I dont have any terrible disease...but I was miserable every single day. My WORST symptom was the feeling that I was choking...sometimes it would last night and day for weeks at a time...but it finally had a name. I was diagnosed with GLOBUS HYSTERICUS...the only thing that somewhat made it feel better was xanax..but even that did not totally take away this feeling that I was choking. Oh..I forgot the part that I was also prescribed aciphex and then nexium because the dr thought the feeling may have been reflux..but the meds did not help at all..
So...now at this point I refused...REFUSED...to live life feeling this way forever..the regular dr did not have much left to offer me...I did not know what to do. I gave in and called a psychiatrist...this was the best thing I have done...