High school confidental

I have watched this show this past season and it got me thinking about how things could have been so different if I had a different high school experience. If I could go back in time there are quite a few things I would do differently. The first thing I wish I had known in high school is that it was not important to have to have a boyfriend. I started out high school so excited about what was to come. I was in band and so had a large group of friends. My first semester was so fun. I played in the marching band at all the football games, we did lots of parades. I was invited to go to parties and to movies and always did something fun on the weekend like miniature golf, skating, ice skating, or just out for ice cream. By my second semester I was starting to focus on boyfriends. By march I had a serious boyfriend. I did not realize it then but that was a downfall. I started withdrawing from my group of friends. I could not concentrate on my schooling because I was always concerned about boy stuff...I was an emotional mess, worried about if my boyfriend was going to break up with me, or if I was going to see him that day or why had he not called the night before etc. I stopped doing fun stuff with my girl friends. I started being that needy girl who could not make up my own mind. The summer between 10th and 11th grade I spent almost every day with my boyfriend. I was totally isolated from my friends and the things that I used to do. It was not totally bad because my boyfriend was a great guy. He was older then me so he had just graduated. Of course I could not imagine going to 11th grade and not having my boyfriend there. It was a really hard time to start 11th grade after spending most of the summer with my boyfriend. When school started and he did not go to the same school with me anymore I was rather lost. I had fallen into the thought that I needed a boyfriend to complete me.
I ended up breaking up with him and within days had another boyfriend....this new boyfriend was not a good guy at all. He treated me badly and made me feel like I deserved it. I lost all self confidence in myself. I had no self esteem. I was failing out of my classes, I ditched at least one day a week.
I think if I could change one thing about high school it would be that I realized that there would be plenty of time for boyfriends and that I should focus on other things as well as make sure to maintain friendships with my girl friends.
I have more to write on this topic but it is midnight so I will have to finish tomorrow...